Life...
Friday, April 30, 2004
One class is officially over!!!!! Took my last test today! I'm to that burnt out point. I think all college students hit that wall at some point during the semester. I just wish mine wouldn't have come right at finals. There is just too much crap going on for me to actually care about school work. I've hit my wall....
I wish I didn't have to work tonight. I wanna go out and have fun and enjoy life. I wish they would call me and say that they didn't need me to come in. I'm actually to that I miss Eckerd's point. I hate to say it, but I would rather be at Eckerd for 8 hours than at Home Depot. At least I have something to do other than stand there and play cashier. I stay super busy at Eckerd where at the Depot I can go like 20 minutes without a customer especially on a rainy day like today.
I just have to tell myself it is only 7 hours, and while it may seem like an eternity, it will end. I still need to turn in what my availability for the summer. They want me to get the store manager to sign it and very rarely do I see him........which can be nice, but I also question how many hours he actually works. Who knows.....
I wish I didn't have to work tonight. I wanna go out and have fun and enjoy life. I wish they would call me and say that they didn't need me to come in. I'm actually to that I miss Eckerd's point. I hate to say it, but I would rather be at Eckerd for 8 hours than at Home Depot. At least I have something to do other than stand there and play cashier. I stay super busy at Eckerd where at the Depot I can go like 20 minutes without a customer especially on a rainy day like today.
I just have to tell myself it is only 7 hours, and while it may seem like an eternity, it will end. I still need to turn in what my availability for the summer. They want me to get the store manager to sign it and very rarely do I see him........which can be nice, but I also question how many hours he actually works. Who knows.....
Well it is Friday!!!! How wonderful is that? My only problem is that I have to work tonight. That royally sucks. The Depot spoiled me giving me two friday's off in a row. Oh well I shouldn't complain I do have Saturday off......wow a whole day off. I could have used this somewhere in the middle of the semester not at the end. I have next Sunday off too..Maybe I will find someone who wants to go to the Renaissance Festival with me. I love going it is always a blast. I talked to the guy who owns the castle where they hold it and he said that there are some new shows this year.
Well I got some news last night that I found absolutely hilarious. So I saw Kristoffer in the back of his parents car the other day....come to find out his clutch went out. That just made my day yesterday. He doesn't have me to drive him around......for me that is a thank goodness.
I wonder if my aunt still wants me to show Em around campus. School is almost out.
I heard a really good poem yesterday. It was about how poetry should be read and taught.
Introduction to poetry
I ask them to take a poem
and hold it up to the light
like a color slide
or press an ear against its hive.
I say drop a mouse into a poem
and watch him probe his way out,
or walk inside the poem's room
and feel the walls for a light switch.
I want then to waterski
across the surface of a poem
waving at the author's name on the shore.
But all they want to do
is tie the poem to a chair with a rope
and torture a confession out of it.
They begin beating it with a hose
to find out what it really means.
Billy Collins
I thought that poem was cute. Well today is the last day in my Survey of the Exceptional Child. Our last test and I will be through with it. My YOED teacher said that she wasn't having a final so that is another one I don't have to worry about. It is wonderful. Now I will only have two classes to think about. Oh well I need to go get ready for school...
Well I got some news last night that I found absolutely hilarious. So I saw Kristoffer in the back of his parents car the other day....come to find out his clutch went out. That just made my day yesterday. He doesn't have me to drive him around......for me that is a thank goodness.
I wonder if my aunt still wants me to show Em around campus. School is almost out.
I heard a really good poem yesterday. It was about how poetry should be read and taught.
Introduction to poetry
I ask them to take a poem
and hold it up to the light
like a color slide
or press an ear against its hive.
I say drop a mouse into a poem
and watch him probe his way out,
or walk inside the poem's room
and feel the walls for a light switch.
I want then to waterski
across the surface of a poem
waving at the author's name on the shore.
But all they want to do
is tie the poem to a chair with a rope
and torture a confession out of it.
They begin beating it with a hose
to find out what it really means.
Billy Collins
I thought that poem was cute. Well today is the last day in my Survey of the Exceptional Child. Our last test and I will be through with it. My YOED teacher said that she wasn't having a final so that is another one I don't have to worry about. It is wonderful. Now I will only have two classes to think about. Oh well I need to go get ready for school...
Thursday, April 29, 2004
Well I just finished up my Lesson Plan. You can see it here. I think it is pretty good...
Well it is Thursday!! Tomorrow is Friday....I sing this joyously. I went over to Annie's apartment last night even though I should have been at the library working on my papers.....tonight..definitely tonight. Gotta do it.
This is for Bubba.
It was the first time and it was the smallest, but it was the most interesting thing it was sweet and sour all in one. I'm sorry I threw it in the trash, but it just wasn't that great. I'll give you credit though I was forewarned...LOL.
This is for Jack upon request:
Jack is a really sweet guy. He is not an asshole by far, but can be a smart ass....which can be a good quality and is in him. I enjoy his company. He never fails to make me smile and laugh about something goofy. For example: "Do dogs think dog poo stinks?" "Or do people know that bologna is actually in liquid form before it is made?" These are just some of the random questions I have been asked. They always make me laugh. Oh and I especially loved this one, "I miss my Mustang LOL." That one truly brightened the day. I love the fact that I can daydream about someone while sitting in a boring class or sitting at a stop light. I love the fact that even though I am at work he will still call...that always makes me smile. These two smiley faces always make me think of him
LOL.
At this time I would like to post a few of those before I die items:
::Shuffling papers it is here somewhere...........five minutes later......Here it is..::
1. Go to a restaurant and just eat dessert.
2. Randomly dance with a guy. (I think I failed to mention I didn't dance at my junior or senior prom...pretty sad.)
3. Get Married (yeah I know...duh!)
4. Have kids (another duh)
5. Finish college
6. Become a teacher
7. Travel overseas
8. Own a bulldog or a pug
9. Travel to many cities in America
10. Learn to enjoy Shakespeare
11. Take a cruise to see whales
12. Take a day trip to an odd place
13. Perform an anonymous favor
14. Overcome a fear like even though I've been on a cruise I still have that fear of deep ocean. I couldn't imagine getting in water that was super deep and knowing I couldn't swim to the bottom if I wanted too. Scary....
15. Watch the sunrise and sunset with a perfect view.
16. Watch the changing guard at Buckingham Palace.
17. Visit the tower of London.
18. Visit Machu Picchu
Etc.
Ok so on some of them I get a little elaborate, but a girl can dream can't she?
Well it is Thursday!! Tomorrow is Friday....I sing this joyously. I went over to Annie's apartment last night even though I should have been at the library working on my papers.....tonight..definitely tonight. Gotta do it.
This is for Bubba.
It was the first time and it was the smallest, but it was the most interesting thing it was sweet and sour all in one. I'm sorry I threw it in the trash, but it just wasn't that great. I'll give you credit though I was forewarned...LOL.
This is for Jack upon request:
Jack is a really sweet guy. He is not an asshole by far, but can be a smart ass....which can be a good quality and is in him. I enjoy his company. He never fails to make me smile and laugh about something goofy. For example: "Do dogs think dog poo stinks?" "Or do people know that bologna is actually in liquid form before it is made?" These are just some of the random questions I have been asked. They always make me laugh. Oh and I especially loved this one, "I miss my Mustang LOL." That one truly brightened the day. I love the fact that I can daydream about someone while sitting in a boring class or sitting at a stop light. I love the fact that even though I am at work he will still call...that always makes me smile. These two smiley faces always make me think of him
LOL.
At this time I would like to post a few of those before I die items:
::Shuffling papers it is here somewhere...........five minutes later......Here it is..::
1. Go to a restaurant and just eat dessert.
2. Randomly dance with a guy. (I think I failed to mention I didn't dance at my junior or senior prom...pretty sad.)
3. Get Married (yeah I know...duh!)
4. Have kids (another duh)
5. Finish college
6. Become a teacher
7. Travel overseas
8. Own a bulldog or a pug
9. Travel to many cities in America
10. Learn to enjoy Shakespeare
11. Take a cruise to see whales
12. Take a day trip to an odd place
13. Perform an anonymous favor
14. Overcome a fear like even though I've been on a cruise I still have that fear of deep ocean. I couldn't imagine getting in water that was super deep and knowing I couldn't swim to the bottom if I wanted too. Scary....
15. Watch the sunrise and sunset with a perfect view.
16. Watch the changing guard at Buckingham Palace.
17. Visit the tower of London.
18. Visit Machu Picchu
Etc.
Ok so on some of them I get a little elaborate, but a girl can dream can't she?
Wednesday, April 28, 2004
Wow it's about 9:00 and I am already awake. I guess that I what I experience when I get wonderful wake up calls from a guy. 
I am definitely not complaining, I love it.
Uh oh, could he possibly be racking up brownie points with my mom? That's right my mom likes what she hears. He actually has goals in life.
Well I didn't get home until late last night again. It was about 3:30 in the morning....enjoyed the company of a gentleman. I throughly enjoy his company. It is nice to have someone who isn't totally involved with themself and their car to talk to. Why do guys think that girls actually care to hear about their cars all the freakin' time? I would much rather hear, "hey I just got this done to my car" not "Hey I just did this to my car and we had some trouble.............................................Yadda Yadda yadda..................................................(me thinking::I could be doing something to pamper myself pedicure, manicure hell I would even rather be doing that stupid English paper than listen to this crap about cars::).............................................................Sean..................................................................x-pipe.......................................................flowmasters...........................................timing set...........................(::oh god he is almost finished::)............................................yep that's right it took 9 hours." Honestly that is about all I heard everytime. I told him that he would start talking sometimes and I would just tune him out. I guess he didn't believe me. I never really cared. I just knew if it went fast or not most of the time it did. Granted most of his friends' cars were faster. Ok too much about cars can't talk about them anymore.
I just saw the funniest thing in the world on EBay....A man who just got a divorce is selling his ex-wife's wedding dress. He started it as a dollar but now it is up to 25,000....I wish.
Well now that it is almost 10:00 I need to go take a shower and get ready for school......I don't wanna go. I am so ready for it to be over.
I am definitely not complaining, I love it.
Uh oh, could he possibly be racking up brownie points with my mom? That's right my mom likes what she hears. He actually has goals in life.
Well I didn't get home until late last night again. It was about 3:30 in the morning....enjoyed the company of a gentleman. I throughly enjoy his company. It is nice to have someone who isn't totally involved with themself and their car to talk to. Why do guys think that girls actually care to hear about their cars all the freakin' time? I would much rather hear, "hey I just got this done to my car" not "Hey I just did this to my car and we had some trouble.............................................Yadda Yadda yadda..................................................(me thinking::I could be doing something to pamper myself pedicure, manicure hell I would even rather be doing that stupid English paper than listen to this crap about cars::).............................................................Sean..................................................................x-pipe.......................................................flowmasters...........................................timing set...........................(::oh god he is almost finished::)............................................yep that's right it took 9 hours." Honestly that is about all I heard everytime. I told him that he would start talking sometimes and I would just tune him out. I guess he didn't believe me. I never really cared. I just knew if it went fast or not most of the time it did. Granted most of his friends' cars were faster. Ok too much about cars can't talk about them anymore.
I just saw the funniest thing in the world on EBay....A man who just got a divorce is selling his ex-wife's wedding dress. He started it as a dollar but now it is up to 25,000....I wish.
Well now that it is almost 10:00 I need to go take a shower and get ready for school......I don't wanna go. I am so ready for it to be over.
Tuesday, April 27, 2004
Uhhhhh....I am soooo full. I just finished eating lunch with my friend Katie. We ate at Ruby Tuesday's which normally I would disagree with, but I just really wanted some salad. It was so good too. I probably should have just gone to Demo's and gotten their all you can eat soup and salad. Now that I think of it, it would have been cheaper. That is my main reason for not like Ruby Tuesday's. You pay too much for what you get. Their prices are crazy.
Well I saw a girl from church today on campus and talked to her about Kristoffer. She had no idea what was going on and was surprised to hear we had broken up. I told her, "Oh well, his loss." The funny thing is that I saw him in his parent's car with them driving which tells me that his car probably broke down. Perhaps that is what that no number was last monday.....That would make me so happy considering I got stuck driving him around when that crap happened. I wonder how it feels to be 24 and have to have your parents drive you around.
All this talk about Kristoffer makes me wonder what Joey is up to. He called me last year around this time to inform me that he still thought about me everyday and he still loves me........ Cheating on your girlfriend of two and a half years makes the girl question love. He is engaged which is really scary to me since both of his parents have been married numerous times. This is going to sound bad, but he is one of those people who should not get married so that the divorce cycle will stop. Why don't people get that after 3 or 4 divorces that they should never agree to marriage again. They should just live together and not worry about the nuptials. I guess I am just lucky my parents have been married for 27 going on 28 years. I am truly blessed. That is what I want. I want to find the person who loves me enough to work through anything. A person who understands the importance of marriage and the bond within. I guess what I am saying is that my biggest fear is divorce. That is probably why the two long term relationships have ended for me. It's like God saying, "Hey Jenn, that isn't the right guy for you. Someone better will come along." In a way, the stupid crap that has broken these relationships up are a blessing.
If Joey and I hadn't broken up, I would be married with kids already.......scary. I would also be married to a guy who has no goals in life. I need someone who has goals and can think of ways to better himself, and knows that change is good. I can't give a "If Kristoffer and I hadn't broken up" example because I am yet to know. I can't wait to find out.
Well I saw a girl from church today on campus and talked to her about Kristoffer. She had no idea what was going on and was surprised to hear we had broken up. I told her, "Oh well, his loss." The funny thing is that I saw him in his parent's car with them driving which tells me that his car probably broke down. Perhaps that is what that no number was last monday.....That would make me so happy considering I got stuck driving him around when that crap happened. I wonder how it feels to be 24 and have to have your parents drive you around.
All this talk about Kristoffer makes me wonder what Joey is up to. He called me last year around this time to inform me that he still thought about me everyday and he still loves me........ Cheating on your girlfriend of two and a half years makes the girl question love. He is engaged which is really scary to me since both of his parents have been married numerous times. This is going to sound bad, but he is one of those people who should not get married so that the divorce cycle will stop. Why don't people get that after 3 or 4 divorces that they should never agree to marriage again. They should just live together and not worry about the nuptials. I guess I am just lucky my parents have been married for 27 going on 28 years. I am truly blessed. That is what I want. I want to find the person who loves me enough to work through anything. A person who understands the importance of marriage and the bond within. I guess what I am saying is that my biggest fear is divorce. That is probably why the two long term relationships have ended for me. It's like God saying, "Hey Jenn, that isn't the right guy for you. Someone better will come along." In a way, the stupid crap that has broken these relationships up are a blessing.
If Joey and I hadn't broken up, I would be married with kids already.......scary. I would also be married to a guy who has no goals in life. I need someone who has goals and can think of ways to better himself, and knows that change is good. I can't give a "If Kristoffer and I hadn't broken up" example because I am yet to know. I can't wait to find out.
Uhhhhh....I am soooo full. I just finished eating lunch with my friend Katie. We ate at Ruby Tuesday's which normally I would disagree with, but I just really wanted some salad. It was so good too. I probably should have just gone to Demo's and gotten their all you can eat soup and salad. Now that I think of it, it would have been cheaper. That is my main reason for not like Ruby Tuesday's. You pay too much for what you get. Their prices are crazy.
Well I saw a girl from church today on campus and talked to her about Kristoffer. She had no idea what was going on and was surprised to hear we had broken up. I told her, "Oh well, his loss." The funny thing is that I saw him in his parent's car with them driving which tells me that his car probably broke down. Perhaps that is what that no number was last monday.....That would make me so happy considering I got stuck driving him around when that crap happened. I wonder how it feels to be 24 and have to have your parents drive you around.
All this talk about Kristoffer makes me wonder what Joey is up to. He called me last year around this time to inform me that he still thought about me everyday and he still loves me........ Cheating on your girlfriend of two and a half years makes the girl question love. He is engaged which is really scary to me since both of his parents have been married numerous times. This is going to sound bad, but he is one of those people who should not get married so that the divorce cycle will stop. Why don't people get that after 3 or 4 divorces that they should never agree to marriage again. They should just live together and not worry about the nuptials. I guess I am just lucky my parents have been married for 27 going on 28 years. I am truly blessed. That is what I want. I want to find the person who loves me enough to work through anything. A person who understands the importance of marriage and the bond within. I guess what I am saying is that my biggest fear is divorce. That is probably why the two long term relationships have ended for me. It's like God saying, "Hey Jenn, that isn't the right guy for you. Someone better will come along." In a way, the stupid crap that has broken these relationships up are a blessing.
If Joey and I hadn't broken up, I would be married with kids already.......scary. I would also be married to a guy who has no goals in life. I need someone who has goals and can think of ways to better himself, and knows that change is good. I can't give a "If Kristoffer and I hadn't broken up" example because I am yet to know.
Well I saw a girl from church today on campus and talked to her about Kristoffer. She had no idea what was going on and was surprised to hear we had broken up. I told her, "Oh well, his loss." The funny thing is that I saw him in his parent's car with them driving which tells me that his car probably broke down. Perhaps that is what that no number was last monday.....That would make me so happy considering I got stuck driving him around when that crap happened. I wonder how it feels to be 24 and have to have your parents drive you around.
All this talk about Kristoffer makes me wonder what Joey is up to. He called me last year around this time to inform me that he still thought about me everyday and he still loves me........ Cheating on your girlfriend of two and a half years makes the girl question love. He is engaged which is really scary to me since both of his parents have been married numerous times. This is going to sound bad, but he is one of those people who should not get married so that the divorce cycle will stop. Why don't people get that after 3 or 4 divorces that they should never agree to marriage again. They should just live together and not worry about the nuptials. I guess I am just lucky my parents have been married for 27 going on 28 years. I am truly blessed. That is what I want. I want to find the person who loves me enough to work through anything. A person who understands the importance of marriage and the bond within. I guess what I am saying is that my biggest fear is divorce. That is probably why the two long term relationships have ended for me. It's like God saying, "Hey Jenn, that isn't the right guy for you. Someone better will come along." In a way, the stupid crap that has broken these relationships up are a blessing.
If Joey and I hadn't broken up, I would be married with kids already.......scary. I would also be married to a guy who has no goals in life. I need someone who has goals and can think of ways to better himself, and knows that change is good. I can't give a "If Kristoffer and I hadn't broken up" example because I am yet to know.
Monday, April 26, 2004
Well it is Monday...again. I hate Mondays I have class for what seems like forever and then it seems like the rest of the day is shot.
Well this weekend went by way too fast. I got lucky though on Saturday I got a phone call at 8:00 in the morning telling me to not come into work until 3:30. This was wonderful considering I hadn't gotten home until about 3:30 that morning. I needed the sleep. I also got to enjoy lunch with a good friend of mine, Annie. We ate at O'Charley's and talked about everything that has been going on lately. Next up for a lunch date is Katie, and that is tomorrow if I have time between going to class and having to be at work at 3:30.
On Sunday, I was supposed to work a 9 hour shift, but they started cutting hours again at work so I volunteered to go home so that I could work on my Abnormal Psychology paper. I actually got to go to church!!!! It was so nice to see everybody. People were coming up to me saying that they had missed me being at church. It was so sweet. I was kind of surprised to not see Kristoffer's parents there though. I thought it was finally my big chance to talk to Carole, Kristoffer's mom, about everything that has happened. Of course, she probably doesn't know since everyone I have talked to said he seems really hostile whenever my name is brought up. I don't know what the hell I ever did to him. Actually to be honest I have done everything in my right mind to try to keep him close. Of course, being there whenever he needed a ride to work at 12:30 at night and going back to get him at 8:30 must have made me the shittiest girlfriend ever. It makes me sick to think about how much effort I have put into the relationship just for it to end up like this again. I am done though. I refuse to work on that relationship. It tore me down, and I am so much happier now that I don't have to wonder if he is going to call today. I just know that he isn't going to call and if he does I just won't answer the phone. I made the giant leap of deleting his phone number from my phone book in my cellphone. I guess his mom was right. I am too good for him. He doesn't deserve me. I deserve better. It is pretty sad that his mom said that..... Well I wouldn't say she said it like that I think she told me that she knew that I cared more and I deserved someone who could care for me equally. She said it wasn't fair to me, that i deserved better than that.
Well I have still yet to finish my 1st draft of my paper for psych., so I guess I will just turn it in on Wednesday. I also have to work on my lesson plan for my Youth Education class, and write my last paper for English, start studying for finals...................................AHHHHHHH!!!
I can't wait until school is out. I will get a little rest and actually be able to enjoy days off. Maybe I will go on that trip I just have to find someone to go with me. I am almost to that I need a semester off thing, but I don't want to in fear that I won't go back...that is scary. Well I better get off of here so that I can go to class.
Well this weekend went by way too fast. I got lucky though on Saturday I got a phone call at 8:00 in the morning telling me to not come into work until 3:30. This was wonderful considering I hadn't gotten home until about 3:30 that morning. I needed the sleep. I also got to enjoy lunch with a good friend of mine, Annie. We ate at O'Charley's and talked about everything that has been going on lately. Next up for a lunch date is Katie, and that is tomorrow if I have time between going to class and having to be at work at 3:30.
On Sunday, I was supposed to work a 9 hour shift, but they started cutting hours again at work so I volunteered to go home so that I could work on my Abnormal Psychology paper. I actually got to go to church!!!! It was so nice to see everybody. People were coming up to me saying that they had missed me being at church. It was so sweet. I was kind of surprised to not see Kristoffer's parents there though. I thought it was finally my big chance to talk to Carole, Kristoffer's mom, about everything that has happened. Of course, she probably doesn't know since everyone I have talked to said he seems really hostile whenever my name is brought up. I don't know what the hell I ever did to him. Actually to be honest I have done everything in my right mind to try to keep him close. Of course, being there whenever he needed a ride to work at 12:30 at night and going back to get him at 8:30 must have made me the shittiest girlfriend ever. It makes me sick to think about how much effort I have put into the relationship just for it to end up like this again. I am done though. I refuse to work on that relationship. It tore me down, and I am so much happier now that I don't have to wonder if he is going to call today. I just know that he isn't going to call and if he does I just won't answer the phone. I made the giant leap of deleting his phone number from my phone book in my cellphone. I guess his mom was right. I am too good for him. He doesn't deserve me. I deserve better. It is pretty sad that his mom said that..... Well I wouldn't say she said it like that I think she told me that she knew that I cared more and I deserved someone who could care for me equally. She said it wasn't fair to me, that i deserved better than that.
Well I have still yet to finish my 1st draft of my paper for psych., so I guess I will just turn it in on Wednesday. I also have to work on my lesson plan for my Youth Education class, and write my last paper for English, start studying for finals...................................AHHHHHHH!!!
I can't wait until school is out. I will get a little rest and actually be able to enjoy days off. Maybe I will go on that trip I just have to find someone to go with me. I am almost to that I need a semester off thing, but I don't want to in fear that I won't go back...that is scary. Well I better get off of here so that I can go to class.
