Life...
Monday, April 26, 2004
Well it is Monday...again. I hate Mondays I have class for what seems like forever and then it seems like the rest of the day is shot.
Well this weekend went by way too fast. I got lucky though on Saturday I got a phone call at 8:00 in the morning telling me to not come into work until 3:30. This was wonderful considering I hadn't gotten home until about 3:30 that morning. I needed the sleep. I also got to enjoy lunch with a good friend of mine, Annie. We ate at O'Charley's and talked about everything that has been going on lately. Next up for a lunch date is Katie, and that is tomorrow if I have time between going to class and having to be at work at 3:30.
On Sunday, I was supposed to work a 9 hour shift, but they started cutting hours again at work so I volunteered to go home so that I could work on my Abnormal Psychology paper. I actually got to go to church!!!! It was so nice to see everybody. People were coming up to me saying that they had missed me being at church. It was so sweet. I was kind of surprised to not see Kristoffer's parents there though. I thought it was finally my big chance to talk to Carole, Kristoffer's mom, about everything that has happened. Of course, she probably doesn't know since everyone I have talked to said he seems really hostile whenever my name is brought up. I don't know what the hell I ever did to him. Actually to be honest I have done everything in my right mind to try to keep him close. Of course, being there whenever he needed a ride to work at 12:30 at night and going back to get him at 8:30 must have made me the shittiest girlfriend ever. It makes me sick to think about how much effort I have put into the relationship just for it to end up like this again. I am done though. I refuse to work on that relationship. It tore me down, and I am so much happier now that I don't have to wonder if he is going to call today. I just know that he isn't going to call and if he does I just won't answer the phone. I made the giant leap of deleting his phone number from my phone book in my cellphone. I guess his mom was right. I am too good for him. He doesn't deserve me. I deserve better. It is pretty sad that his mom said that..... Well I wouldn't say she said it like that I think she told me that she knew that I cared more and I deserved someone who could care for me equally. She said it wasn't fair to me, that i deserved better than that.
Well I have still yet to finish my 1st draft of my paper for psych., so I guess I will just turn it in on Wednesday. I also have to work on my lesson plan for my Youth Education class, and write my last paper for English, start studying for finals...................................AHHHHHHH!!!
I can't wait until school is out. I will get a little rest and actually be able to enjoy days off. Maybe I will go on that trip I just have to find someone to go with me. I am almost to that I need a semester off thing, but I don't want to in fear that I won't go back...that is scary. Well I better get off of here so that I can go to class.
Well this weekend went by way too fast. I got lucky though on Saturday I got a phone call at 8:00 in the morning telling me to not come into work until 3:30. This was wonderful considering I hadn't gotten home until about 3:30 that morning. I needed the sleep. I also got to enjoy lunch with a good friend of mine, Annie. We ate at O'Charley's and talked about everything that has been going on lately. Next up for a lunch date is Katie, and that is tomorrow if I have time between going to class and having to be at work at 3:30.
On Sunday, I was supposed to work a 9 hour shift, but they started cutting hours again at work so I volunteered to go home so that I could work on my Abnormal Psychology paper. I actually got to go to church!!!! It was so nice to see everybody. People were coming up to me saying that they had missed me being at church. It was so sweet. I was kind of surprised to not see Kristoffer's parents there though. I thought it was finally my big chance to talk to Carole, Kristoffer's mom, about everything that has happened. Of course, she probably doesn't know since everyone I have talked to said he seems really hostile whenever my name is brought up. I don't know what the hell I ever did to him. Actually to be honest I have done everything in my right mind to try to keep him close. Of course, being there whenever he needed a ride to work at 12:30 at night and going back to get him at 8:30 must have made me the shittiest girlfriend ever. It makes me sick to think about how much effort I have put into the relationship just for it to end up like this again. I am done though. I refuse to work on that relationship. It tore me down, and I am so much happier now that I don't have to wonder if he is going to call today. I just know that he isn't going to call and if he does I just won't answer the phone. I made the giant leap of deleting his phone number from my phone book in my cellphone. I guess his mom was right. I am too good for him. He doesn't deserve me. I deserve better. It is pretty sad that his mom said that..... Well I wouldn't say she said it like that I think she told me that she knew that I cared more and I deserved someone who could care for me equally. She said it wasn't fair to me, that i deserved better than that.
Well I have still yet to finish my 1st draft of my paper for psych., so I guess I will just turn it in on Wednesday. I also have to work on my lesson plan for my Youth Education class, and write my last paper for English, start studying for finals...................................AHHHHHHH!!!
I can't wait until school is out. I will get a little rest and actually be able to enjoy days off. Maybe I will go on that trip I just have to find someone to go with me. I am almost to that I need a semester off thing, but I don't want to in fear that I won't go back...that is scary. Well I better get off of here so that I can go to class.
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