The Soap Opera I call life.....

today today

Well I just got back from my big trip to Eckerd land... I walked into the district office and Diane looked up and said, "Do you wanna come back?" I do...so I told her I would if I could have more money. So she is going to talk to Mark and Beth about it. Hopefully they will be all for me going to the new store that opens in June. That would be so nice to have more money and get away from being a boring cashier.

Well before I left, Christina came in. I said "Hey" and she said hi with a dirty look and kept walking.

I'm having withdrawals from not talking to my mom. I want to talk to my mom!!!! This is one of the downfalls from working at the depot I don't ever see her anymore.

It is now 10:10.....That is what the clock companies set the watch time at so the watch looks like it is smiling....

I just remembered that I have to take that negative to Eckerd for my mom. I wonder if Christina is going to be there. Hmmm...She would probably pretend that I wasn't there anyway. Everytime I go in there everyone asks me what I have been up to. Like it ever changes...work and school...finals are coming up. Of course I can't be like, "Oh my gosh let me tell you about this guy I have been talking to." It is almost like even if I did say that it would be a big no no. Let's whisper about what is going on....it's no big secret. So shoot me I like a guy my friend "saw" we won't really even say dated. Here this is better I like a guy my friend liked/s. I say likes because if she didn't still like him she wouldn't be acting this way. Ahhhh who cares!!! I'll just put that into the memory hole.

Ok now on to the fun stuff.
I caught him in that gaze last night....I love that gaze. You catch it and then you wonder what they are thinking. I got woken up at about three when he moved and he asked if I was cold. Then he covered me up. I woke up this morning with two arms holding me. There is just something about that touch. I got the occassional squeeze with a kiss on the cheek or the shoulder. Hmmm. I feel like a love sick puppy dog.....I make myself sick. and he says he makes corny comments...

I still haven't talked to my mom about what she thought when she met Jack the other day. I haven't seen her. Maybe Saturday, although that is my Dad's birthday....hmmm Sunday before I leave for church. Yeah just maybe....

Tonight I'm supposed to go and help Annie with all of her A&P studying. I need to be reading. Probably help her and then come home and read. Hmm I guess I will start with the last book. I want to go through chapter by chapter and right brief notes about them that way I won't forget.

Whoo Hooo finally got my ring sized. I think I am going to wear it on my thumb rather than my index finger. It looks good there.

Some Random questions.....

Why does the sun lighten our hair, but darken our skin?
Why can't women put on mascara with their mouth closed?
Why doesn't glue stick to the inside of the bottle?
Why don't you ever see the headline "Psychic Wins Lottery"?
Why is "abbreviated" such a long word?
Why is a boxing ring square?
Why is it called lipstick if you can still move your lips?
Why is it that rain drops but snow falls?
Why is it that when you're driving and looking for an address, you turn down the volume on the radio?
Why is lemon juice made with artificial flavor, and dishwashing liquid made with real lemons?
Why is the man who invests all your money called a broker?
Why is the third hand on the watch called second hand?
Why is the time of day with the slowest traffic called rush hour?
Why isn't there mouse-flavored cat food?
If women wear a pair of pants, a pair of glasses and a pair of earrings, why don't they wear a pair of bras?
How come you never hear about gruntled employees?
What is a "free" gift? Aren't all gifts free?
If someone with multiple personalities threatens to kill himself, is it considered a hostage situation?
Why are builders afraid to have a 13th floor but book publishers aren't afraid to have a Chapter 11?
If an orange is orange, why isn't a lime called a green or a lemon called a yellow?

Ok that is alot of random questions.....that I definitely didn't think up by myself..

Well I get to leave for work soon....not that I want to, but I gotta make some money so that I can afford my phone bill next month. I am really going to get more minutes added or pay for the unlimited minutes. i would rather pay an extra 20 dollars a month than pay like a hundred more a month. Yeah...

I can't forget to get a manager to sign my stupid schedule thing. I think I have decided to just put down that I am available anytime during store hours, but I would prefer to work mornings.

It is Wednesday!! Well I enjoyed my day off yesterday..no work no school... I feel so much better I actually think I will be able to make the most of the rest of this week.

Jack came and saw me yesterday! I thought that was really sweet. A nice surprise. Granted he did kick my butt at X-men academy....I dare him to play me in that new boxing game that just came out....I have yet to lose! Of course that is on Playstation 2 and I don't have one of those. Oh well. I did have to show him where auto zone was and of course that is right next to the Eckerd where Christina works. Luckily she was in the breakroom eating when we went in the store. I just didn't want her to think I was trying to start something or that he was trying to start something because knowing her she would have thought that way. Of course that was the farthest from the truth.

WARNING EX-BOYFRIEND CENTRAL DOWN BELOW!!

DOWN BELOW!!Jase called me last night. He said he wanted to go do something Saturday after I get off of work. He said since it was mother's day weekend everyone he usually hangs out with is going home and that includes his girlfriend/fiance. I still can't believe that he has found a girl that he can actually look at that way. It just seems so weird. In the eight years that I have been friends with him I have yet to hear him say, "Hey Jenn, I think this is the one." It freaks Annie out too....but I think we all figure that it is good that way he won't try to date any of us. I will admit though he is a good rebound date. I dated him right after Joey and I broke up and he does know how to show a girl a good time. It is always nice to find those guys. Of course, there was that year that 3 year span recently while Kristoffer and I dated that I refused to talk to him and he refused to talk to me. I didn't believe him when he said that the guy I dated before Kristoffer had been all over another girl one night at a party. Actually I still haven't talked to Heather since then and Kristoffer and I didn't talk for a few months because of that. It's not that I didn't believe them it was just the manner in which they told me because that guy and I soon stopped dating after I found that one out. YUCK...sorry bad memory..I don't know what the hell I was thinking when I dated him. He was one of those, "the spot" boys. You know the people who all hang out at "the spot." They all stand around in a parking lot or the lake and that's called "the spot." "Hey man will all meet at "the spot." Memories of them acting stupid. Ok it was Riverdale Redneck Land. They were known as the redneck group in Riverdale. Ok enough about that.

Today is Cinco de Mayo.....another excuse for people to get drunk!! From what I hear most people in Mexico don't really celebrate this. It would be like all of the US celebrating every year the annexation of Texas. It isn't the independence day of Mexico as most people believe. That is September 16..

Saw this icon thought it was cute....

I am hypnotizing you with my giddy school girl appeal.

These icons are especially for Jack
The middle one especially since that is what he got stuck doing the last time he played golf.

I'm looking forward to tonight after I get off of work going and watching a movie relaxing in bed getting comfy...


Well I am off to take a shower....soon....Jack just called....

Well it is Tuesday. I finally got my paper finished. I didn't go to my YOED class today not because I was working on my paper, but because I felt kind of funky. I also called out of work just incase. If I am sick I don't wanna throw up on anyone. I really just think that my nerves are shot. Maybe a day off no work no school will do the trick. I don't feel constantly sick just an occassional funk which is why I think it is just nerves.

I have a couple of things I need to do today though since I am not going to work. I need to go drop off my paper with my English Professor. That will take two seconds. I need to get gas and go to the bank. I also need to get my ring sized. Since I did just buy it I would like to wear it.

Well anyway yesterday was a half and half day. Part of it was school and then the other part was with Jack. That was the better part of the day. It's nice to be able to curl up next to him and sleep.

Relief

I have this overwhelming sense of relief that has come over me. The rough draft for my psych paper that I have been stressing out over wasn't worth any points. I am not doing nearly as bad in that class as I thought....I'm making an A. I didn't have a test today...we are having it on Monday week. I went to talk to Dr. McCluskey and he said I could turn my paper into him tomorrow which is nice since my entire morning has been hectic. He told me not to stress out about it. Now I am at home relaxing before I have to go back to class. I'm considering going and taking a hot shower. I do have about an hour and fifteen minutes until then.

Tina said some really sweet words before I left the classroom today. She asked me if I was still going to church and if not I really needed to go and that she would put me on her prayer list........These words were really comforting considering at that point not only was I stressing about my grades and papers that are due I also get stuck with that lingering fact that Kristoffer called my cellphone yesterday. I know I shouldn't let it bother me, but of course I do. I just don't know why he thinks it is ok to call me. Maybe he didn't mean to....that is what I will keep thinking.....He accidently left his phone in his pocket without keyguard on and it called me by coincidence. Yep that sounds good. Anyway the fact that Tina said that was really sweet of her. I do have to say that the going to church thing hit me hard. I miss getting to go to church at least once a week. It kills me that I can't go except for once in every blue moon......This Sunday I am off of work and I am going to go. I'm excited

Well i guess I'm gonna go take that shower.

At this moment in time, I am supposed to be writing a paper for my English class. Obviously I'm not, but that is only because I am thinking of what I am going to write. I am also thinking about the fact that I have a test in about 2 hours that I don't have the notes for. SCARY!! Hopefully the test is today.

I put my car in Auto Art today. I am now driving a Chevy Impala for the rest of the week... Fun Fun....Now I just have to figure out how everything works. One plus is that it has cruise control, and a huge minus is no CD player!! That makes me sad! Oh well.

Well on Friday night I went to work, and then went over to Annie's apartment. We sat there for a while and then Jack called and wanted to come down. Little did I know he had been drinking more than I had anticipated. He made it ok to the local Smyrna Wal-Mart, but I had to drive him to Annie's because there was no way I was going to let him try and drive. Well whenever we got back to Annie's Bubba was already asleep and then about thirty minutes went by and Jack had fallen asleep sitting up in a chair......Some people can just sleep anywhere. It took me about 5 minutes to get him up and move him to the bedroom so that he could actually lay down. He wanted me to lay down with him, but I wanted to stay in the living room and talk to Annie. So we sat around and talked for a little while and then she broke out the tequila from the fridge and some playing cards and we played Rummy and Skipbo. I never knew that a game of Skipbo could last for 2 hours, but apparently it can if you are drinking and playing truth truth ( no dares aloud). Truth truth can be fun if you haven't been friends with someone for years. So Annie and I have decided to play it the Wednesday night after finals when sweet, innocent Natalie is there.....That will be fun. Corrupt her mind.

On Saturday, I messaged Christina to see if she wanted to go do something that night. Apparently she thought I " would have been up Jacks ass...We can go do something." This tells me that she is pissed. Well after Annie dropped me off at my house I took a shower and thought I would run up to Eckerd to see Christina. Well the whole time I am there she just seems really distant. So eventually I left, she said that she would call me when she got off of work, but that never happened, so I just made plans with Melissa before I left. I figured Christina would bale out on me everytime I try to go out to do something with her even before the whole Jack thing she would blow me off because of this new guy she is talking to. He lives all the way out in Gordonsville which is near Cookeville. So I guess since she is constantly going to see him she can't find time for her friends.

Anyway...On Saturday I went over to Sean's house to take him a HD coupon, and to play with Katy and Pierce his two kids. His little kids are so much fun. While I was over there we talked about Kristoffer and how everytime Sean talks to him he doesn't say anything about me just talks about his stupid Mustang. While I was over there Kristoffer called and Sean left the room to answer it. Sean said Kristoffer wanted him to help put the clutch in his Mustang....no actually I am sorry...he wants Sean to pull all of his stuff out of the garage so that Kristoffer can pull his mustang into the garage to work on it. Sean told him no.

So yesterday I worked all day long.....but when I went on lunch I got a phone call....See I deleted Kristoffer's number out of my phone, so when it rang I picked it up not realizing that it was Kristoffer's cell phone number on my caller id. He didn't say anything, but he kept the phone on. I just hung up after saying Hello for the thrid time. I'm so pissed he called. He makes me so mad. I don't want him calling me, and if he does again I am probably going to go off on him.

Well last night I went to Jack's house. We rented movies. The only crappy thing about the movies is that one of them I had to watch for my paper so it wasn't too much fun. The Maltese Falcon is a good movie don't get me wrong, but I would have much rather watched the other two. Anyway I fell asleep over there at like 12 and woke up about 1:25 and knew I needed to leave. I wanted to stay over, but I couldn't because I had to take my car to Auto Art. Stupid person who hit me ruined my good cuddling sleep last night. It just kills me how comfortable I am curled up next to him.

Off to class I go.....I have to come home for a little while to write my paper.........Hope I can get it done on time otherwise I will be late to class.