The Soap Opera I call life.....

I knew something else would happen it was just too good to be true.....

So I am at work yesterday, and my friend Reese comes up to me and says hey Jennifer do you wanna know what I heard. I looked at him and said is it going to upset me? If it makes me mad I'm ok, but is it going to upset me? He just said kind of shrugged his shoulders. He then proceeds to tell me that he talked to Casey, a girl who goes to RFC, and she said that Kristoffer was bragging about back handing me like 3 times, and also that he had his mind set on dating this other girl named Jennifer. Ok so one this pisses me off because he has never once back handed me and if he had he would have been thrown in the trash can a long time ago. This also gives me great pleasure in the fact that I was right.....there was another girl. Damn I'm good. Like always he sees another girl somewhere and she might talk to him or flirt with him and he can't stop himself, and how does he tell me? Oh I'm sorry he doesn't. Why does he think any girl is going to date him if he can't grow up and tell me that he doesn't wanna be with me. I'm just waiting for him to try to come crawling back. Only this time, to his disappointment, I will say I'm sorry I am enjoying the single life. No one to ask if I have plans with him before I make plans with my friends....... No one holding me back. It's been two weeks and I have already seen the happiness coming back. I didn't want him to come back the last time, but he came crying back. I thought he was sincere, and he may have been, but he still left again. I just can't take the bipolar-ness anymore. It is always in April that he leaves.... hmm must be seasonal for him. Like Spring Cleaning time.... "Ok well this year I will get rid of Jennifer again....I think that girl (Insert Name Here) likes me I will just go after her...(My add in) unsuccessfully."

Well yesterday I only got stuck working 6 hours, so it went rather fast. I then proceeded to watch a movie... It was a rather interesting movie, but I can't even remember the name of it.

Well, tonight is the big night. I am going on my date that my friend doesn't approve of. I hope it goes well. That is right always look for the positive in everything.

With that being said, I love living my life this way. Looking for positives. I had a guy the other night who comes through my line quite often and he said that he loved the way I looked at life. That made me feel great. I just don't see the point in being unhappy if I can avoid it. Most of the time I can. I might be really angry, but I will still look really happy.....because I am. I am one of those people who in the morning chooses that they are going to be happy that day. It will probably add years onto my life.

It is Thursday finally! Whoo Hoo tomorrow is Friday! Of course, I still have to work two ten hour shifts this weekend, but at least I have Friday off. My day has kind of started off blah. I don't even know what to think about at this point with all of these different occurences happening all at once. I more or less try not to worry about any of them.

Last night I drove around for a while after I got off of work. I love to just drive. I just wish it would have been daytime so I could see the "country" I was in. I think I am going to be one of those older people who goes for Sunday drives after church.
Yeah there we go maybe I can afford a new one of these.

MY FRIEND CANCELLED ON ME!!!!!! So now I guess I go all alone with Jack. Wonder how she'll feel about that.

What kind of trouble will I find myself in now?

I decided to go out with the guy my friend dated again. We are going out on Friday, but not alone, with my friend and her boyfriend. Now I just have to make the decision on how to tell her that I am going out with him again. He is a lot of fun, so I figure if nothing more we can at least be friends, which I am sure is the last thing he wants to hear.

It is official. It has been two weeks since I last spoke to my ex-boyfriend. Normally it takes him that long to call, but I will give him credit last time it took longer than that. Of course, if he was to call today he would be in for a rude awakening. I have a few choice words to say to him about how he needs to grow up and be a man, and by that I mean he should have the common decency to actually break up with me, and as long as we have been dating he should have said it to me to my face. There is a lot of pent up frustration there for me I guess. I am just so tired of his crap. I just wish that he would have made up his mind on whether or not he wanted to be with me a long time ago rather than wasting 3 years of my life. Don't get me wrong I enjoyed my time with him and perhaps it wasn't wasted, but I could have just been friends with him and dated some other people.

How I dread going to work today. I just wish I could have more than a day off in a row. Like say Monday and Tuesday rather than Monday and Friday or Monday and Wednesday. It gets really frustrating when I don't have a day off between work and school. My last whole day off was during spring break.....oh well at least finals are about to be here and so is summer. Then I can consider taking a weekend off and going somewhere. Gatlinburg or something.

I'll start with what seems to be the story of my life recently. For the past three years, I have been dating the same guy. We were best friends before we dated which is why it really sucks that we broke up....again. About two weeks ago he just stopped calling, so this means that technically he never broke up with me. His friend came into my work and I told him what was going on and without my knowing called Kristoffer to ask what was up. He then came back into my work and told me that Kristoffer said that as far as he was concerned we were broken up....no reason why.... That was his final chance. I am tired of it. I'm so tired of it crying is out of the picture. I've prepared for this moment. I surrounded myself with friends right before it happened...........

This begins the story of my single life

Last night I enjoyed the company of a great guy who is funny and charming. He took me to Romano's and to a hilarious movie The Girl Next Door. Only one problem.........he dated my best friend and I cannot go out with him again. Like I told him I just lost a boyfriend and I am not prepared to lose a best friend now especially over a guy. To me, no guy is worth that. I already let it happen once and it isn't happening again.

I saw hot beer guy on Thursday!!! I would have loved to say but I didn't. He is a really sweet guy and why his life just got turned upside down on him I will never know. I would love for my next date to be with him.....hmmm. He has asked me out before and it could happen again. Except for this time I won't have to say maybe some other time. Oh yeah that is right, I said MAYBE that one word guys don't wanna hear.....oops.. I tried to show him I was still interested. So maybe he will ask again. Probably screwed that one up big time.

Well it is time to start a new day, I have about twenty minutes before I need to go to class and work. That is what my fun filled day will consist of. I just have to find something to wear.....