Life...
Friday, May 21, 2004
It's FRIDAY!!
Ok so I actually have today off, but I get stuck working all weekend....13 hours Saturday and 10 hours Sunday...yuck. I am going to be exhausted. Oh well at least I get next Saturday off...I think and then the next weekend I should have off completely. Whoo Hoo..
I spent the night with Jack last night. I've decided I like to sleep on the inside close to the wall...Maybe that is my whole body pillow thing where I have to have one on each side of me, or maybe I just feel more protected that way. He asked me this morning if I had been a neglected girlfriend.....I said yes, but I keep asking myself if that is true. I think in someways it was true. His car came before me. If his car was down I drove him around including to work sometimes...He had to be at work around 3:00 in the morning and then he got off of work around 8:00, and of course he worked off of Elm Hill Pike and he lived in Lascassas. This means I would drive around 35 minutes to his house and then turn around and go back towards Nashville for about an hour and then drive home for about 30 minutes. I guess I was trying to be the perfect girlfriend or something. He used to tell some of the guys that he worked with at Barnett about me, and they were always like wow I wish my girlfriend was like that. I took care of him more than he took care of me. I remember this one time that I lost someone that was dear to me, and I didn't even tell him because I knew he would act like it was no big deal. Whenever my uncle passed away recently I don't even remember hearing him say anything about it. I told him and he went right on talking about himself. Everytime I needed him he couldn't be there for me. So for the past three years not only have I dealt with alot of his emotional stuff I've had to deal with my emotions all alone. Yeah I could have talked to my friend's, but after a while I started to think that they didn't care. The last couple of times we broke up I didn't even tell my friends unless they asked about him. I really honestly thought that they were tired of hearing me tell them about what he had done this time. Had he just stopped calling or did I get a forewarning? Yet, then again I had deserted alot of my friends so I really didn't want them to think that when I did want to go out with them it was because Kristoffer was out of the picture. Almost as if I didn't have time for them while we were together. The last time we broke up I picked up the pieces and moved on I was so happy.....and then he came back and I was happy for a while, but then it just went back to the same old stuff. Some of the things that killed me the most were the nights when I got no hug before he left, the many times that we had sex and there was no kiss...it was just sex and he wondered why I never wanted to do anything...the times that he would talk to someone for an example Laura and then that is all he wanted to talk about. Wow Laura said this or me and Alyssa have so much in common...Don't get me wrong Laura is absolutely gorgeous and I don't blame him for liking her, but I didn't want to hear about it. And why he didn't just continue talking to Alyssa and not gotten back together with me this last time I will never know because they are perfect for each other or at least that is the way he made it sound. She didn't want kids neither does he. He claims that she had mental issues and so does he(literally. Etc. His dad said the last time we got back together that Kristoffer would come to his senses and one day he wouldn't be having a bi-polar moment and he would get rid of me for good.<-----I wonder if this last one was a bi-polar moment or not....hmmm.....or did I get rid of him.
Anyway the whole point of that big long paragraph was going to be that maybe I wasn't neglected, but instead it looks like I tried to prove that I was.
Jack and I are supposed to go see Shrek 2 tonight.
I just hope that it is not sold out when we get there. That would be such a disappointment. I can't wait to see that movie. I need to go pick up my last paycheck from the depot. I just dread walking in there. The thought of someone saying something to me and then me going off just doesn't look to exciting today. It takes alot to get me mad, but when I am I let it all out at once. That is hilarious....people always see me as nice sweet Jennifer, but then I get pissed and they see that total change to "damn I didn't know she had it in her" Jennifer. I only let that out maybe once a year. I just don't see the point in getting angry over stupid stuff. Normally whenever I do go off I will block it out. Like this one time I told my ex Silas off....I barely remember doing it. I just remember being about to get into the car and Silas said something about Kristoffer (they knew each other so therefore Silas had said alot about Kristoffer, but I was just tired of it this time) and I got out of the car and let him have it. I wish I could remember what I said because I am sure he deserved it all.
Well it is shower time....I gotta look cute for Jack later so that means I need to take a shower and lotion up. Go get my paycheck. Etc.
LOL. 
Ok so I actually have today off, but I get stuck working all weekend....13 hours Saturday and 10 hours Sunday...yuck. I am going to be exhausted. Oh well at least I get next Saturday off...I think and then the next weekend I should have off completely. Whoo Hoo..
I spent the night with Jack last night. I've decided I like to sleep on the inside close to the wall...Maybe that is my whole body pillow thing where I have to have one on each side of me, or maybe I just feel more protected that way. He asked me this morning if I had been a neglected girlfriend.....I said yes, but I keep asking myself if that is true. I think in someways it was true. His car came before me. If his car was down I drove him around including to work sometimes...He had to be at work around 3:00 in the morning and then he got off of work around 8:00, and of course he worked off of Elm Hill Pike and he lived in Lascassas. This means I would drive around 35 minutes to his house and then turn around and go back towards Nashville for about an hour and then drive home for about 30 minutes. I guess I was trying to be the perfect girlfriend or something. He used to tell some of the guys that he worked with at Barnett about me, and they were always like wow I wish my girlfriend was like that. I took care of him more than he took care of me. I remember this one time that I lost someone that was dear to me, and I didn't even tell him because I knew he would act like it was no big deal. Whenever my uncle passed away recently I don't even remember hearing him say anything about it. I told him and he went right on talking about himself. Everytime I needed him he couldn't be there for me. So for the past three years not only have I dealt with alot of his emotional stuff I've had to deal with my emotions all alone. Yeah I could have talked to my friend's, but after a while I started to think that they didn't care. The last couple of times we broke up I didn't even tell my friends unless they asked about him. I really honestly thought that they were tired of hearing me tell them about what he had done this time. Had he just stopped calling or did I get a forewarning? Yet, then again I had deserted alot of my friends so I really didn't want them to think that when I did want to go out with them it was because Kristoffer was out of the picture. Almost as if I didn't have time for them while we were together. The last time we broke up I picked up the pieces and moved on I was so happy.....and then he came back and I was happy for a while, but then it just went back to the same old stuff. Some of the things that killed me the most were the nights when I got no hug before he left, the many times that we had sex and there was no kiss...it was just sex and he wondered why I never wanted to do anything...the times that he would talk to someone for an example Laura and then that is all he wanted to talk about. Wow Laura said this or me and Alyssa have so much in common...Don't get me wrong Laura is absolutely gorgeous and I don't blame him for liking her, but I didn't want to hear about it. And why he didn't just continue talking to Alyssa and not gotten back together with me this last time I will never know because they are perfect for each other or at least that is the way he made it sound. She didn't want kids neither does he. He claims that she had mental issues and so does he(literally. Etc. His dad said the last time we got back together that Kristoffer would come to his senses and one day he wouldn't be having a bi-polar moment and he would get rid of me for good.<-----I wonder if this last one was a bi-polar moment or not....hmmm.....or did I get rid of him.
Anyway the whole point of that big long paragraph was going to be that maybe I wasn't neglected, but instead it looks like I tried to prove that I was.
Jack and I are supposed to go see Shrek 2 tonight.
I just hope that it is not sold out when we get there. That would be such a disappointment. I can't wait to see that movie. I need to go pick up my last paycheck from the depot. I just dread walking in there. The thought of someone saying something to me and then me going off just doesn't look to exciting today. It takes alot to get me mad, but when I am I let it all out at once. That is hilarious....people always see me as nice sweet Jennifer, but then I get pissed and they see that total change to "damn I didn't know she had it in her" Jennifer. I only let that out maybe once a year. I just don't see the point in getting angry over stupid stuff. Normally whenever I do go off I will block it out. Like this one time I told my ex Silas off....I barely remember doing it. I just remember being about to get into the car and Silas said something about Kristoffer (they knew each other so therefore Silas had said alot about Kristoffer, but I was just tired of it this time) and I got out of the car and let him have it. I wish I could remember what I said because I am sure he deserved it all.
Well it is shower time....I gotta look cute for Jack later so that means I need to take a shower and lotion up. Go get my paycheck. Etc.
LOL.
Wednesday, May 19, 2004
Jack is just the greatest in the world.....He is a legend in his own mind......
Truthfully though he is a great guy...::tingly feelings:: I love spending time with him. I can't wait to see him tonight!
Well lets see when was the last time I wrote?
Friday......
I went to pick up my car and attempt to drive it home......yeah the word attempt is in there because my brain wasn't working. I went to turn it over and it wouldn't start so I sat there for like 20 seconds trying to figure out what they had done to my car and then I realized...duh Jennifer you have to push the clutch in. That is what I get for driving an automatic for over a week. Well Annie called me before I went to get my car and told me that her mom had been put in the hospital and that she was going to see her. It wasn't anything serious, but Annie was really upset. Her mom insisted that the trip go on so that we could go see Annie Nicole's wedding.
So we went...we left really late around 4. On the way there we had a truck driver stalker...he kept honking his horn, waving and flashing his lights to get our attention. It was funny. Well we arrived in Pigeon Forge around 8 our time which made it 9 their time...this left us with no time to do anything. So we went searching for a bathing suit for Annie so we could hop in the hot tub at the pool. We had no luck, so we went back to our room for a minute and decided to go out again. We drove into Gatlinburg and cruised like the rest of the people....ok so it wasn't by choice we had too just to get through town. That was the only time we were in Gatlinburg. We then went back to our motel room and starting playing cards and drinking....at about 3:30 we got a wild hair up our butt and went to Denny's. Our waitress was awesome. After eating about a 1/3 of the food we decided we were tired. We went back to the motel and pretty much took off shoes and jeans and said, "yes I am wearing a thong....suck it up" We were sleeping in separate beds so it wasn't a big deal.
Saturday
I woke up Saturday morning crazy early. So I went and took a shower and when I got out of the shower my phone was telling me I had a message so I checked it..It was a message from *Jack* asking me to call him. Well little did I know that he sent the message the night before and I was just getting it then. I called him and woke him up which made me feel bad, but he said it was ok. We talked for like almost an hour, and then I went in to try and wake Annie up. It didn't work. I laid down and woke up around 10:15 and started freaking out because Annie hadn't taken a shower yet and we had to be out by 11. We made it though. I finished ironing Annie's skirt about 3 minutes before we had to be out....(The iron thing....yeah we really needed one of our mom's...we both suck at ironing.)
So we left for Annie's cousin's wedding. It wasn't really that far of a drive. The chapel was beautiful outside. I wasn't too impressed with the inside...it was pretty but they had a red velour sheet hanging in the back that was yuck. Well after the vows were said..which of course made me cry..we had to sit there while they took pictures. I looked over at Annie at this point and said, "This is why I want most of my pictures to be taken before the wedding." You could tell the new married couple wanted to go somewhere and kiss or something, but they weren't able to enjoy the moment because they had to automatically take pictures. Annie Nicole looked gorgeous though and she was just glowing. We talked to Annie Nicole and told her congratulations etc. and then we were on our way home....What a short trip to the mountains. I can't wait to go back and enjoy myself without being rushed.
When I got home, *Jack* was on his way to my house. I made sure not to change clothes to quickly when I got home so he could get a glimse of me looking extra cute....oops secret is out now...We went out after I changed clothes and ate at Camino Real mmmm mmmm. We then went back to my house, watched a little bit of a movie with my parents, and were about to head to his house, but I had to take Annie her glasses. We sat over at their apartment until late and then made our way to his house where I got rubbed and kissed on until I fell asleep...how sweet is that? Normally it is the other way around.
Sunday morning we slept in which is a first for us. Normally we have to wake up early so that he can go to work. We spent the day together, and even fell asleep one last time together on my bed. Then he left for his friend's house and I called Katie.
Katie and I went out for a little while. Didn't really do anything, but I didn't get to sleep until about 2:30 in the morning....It was not fun getting up to go to work on Monday.
Monday I went to work. This store I am in is a total mess..... I went to *Jack's* after work and ate what he had made...mmmm mmmm. Then we watched TV. Amazingly the same thing happened yesterday.
So far today I have gone to work. *Jack* and I are going to go do something once he gets off of work. This means I need to go take a shower and lotion up, so I will smell really good. Wonder what I will wear today.
Oops forgot to mention the super sweet thing *Jack* did this morning. Every night when I leave his house he tells me to call him when I get home. Well last night I called but he didn't pick up his phone. I get a phone call at 3:41:17am and it is him calling to make sure I got home ok. He said he couldn't sleep because he was worried.....( me wondering what was actually said because I barely remember him calling but I do remember.) Come to find out it was actually the second time he called me. Awwwww.....He really likes me.
Truthfully though he is a great guy...::tingly feelings:: I love spending time with him. I can't wait to see him tonight!
Well lets see when was the last time I wrote?
Friday......
I went to pick up my car and attempt to drive it home......yeah the word attempt is in there because my brain wasn't working. I went to turn it over and it wouldn't start so I sat there for like 20 seconds trying to figure out what they had done to my car and then I realized...duh Jennifer you have to push the clutch in. That is what I get for driving an automatic for over a week. Well Annie called me before I went to get my car and told me that her mom had been put in the hospital and that she was going to see her. It wasn't anything serious, but Annie was really upset. Her mom insisted that the trip go on so that we could go see Annie Nicole's wedding.
So we went...we left really late around 4. On the way there we had a truck driver stalker...he kept honking his horn, waving and flashing his lights to get our attention. It was funny. Well we arrived in Pigeon Forge around 8 our time which made it 9 their time...this left us with no time to do anything. So we went searching for a bathing suit for Annie so we could hop in the hot tub at the pool. We had no luck, so we went back to our room for a minute and decided to go out again. We drove into Gatlinburg and cruised like the rest of the people....ok so it wasn't by choice we had too just to get through town. That was the only time we were in Gatlinburg. We then went back to our motel room and starting playing cards and drinking....at about 3:30 we got a wild hair up our butt and went to Denny's. Our waitress was awesome. After eating about a 1/3 of the food we decided we were tired. We went back to the motel and pretty much took off shoes and jeans and said, "yes I am wearing a thong....suck it up" We were sleeping in separate beds so it wasn't a big deal.
Saturday
I woke up Saturday morning crazy early. So I went and took a shower and when I got out of the shower my phone was telling me I had a message so I checked it..It was a message from *Jack* asking me to call him. Well little did I know that he sent the message the night before and I was just getting it then. I called him and woke him up which made me feel bad, but he said it was ok. We talked for like almost an hour, and then I went in to try and wake Annie up. It didn't work. I laid down and woke up around 10:15 and started freaking out because Annie hadn't taken a shower yet and we had to be out by 11. We made it though. I finished ironing Annie's skirt about 3 minutes before we had to be out....(The iron thing....yeah we really needed one of our mom's...we both suck at ironing.)
So we left for Annie's cousin's wedding. It wasn't really that far of a drive. The chapel was beautiful outside. I wasn't too impressed with the inside...it was pretty but they had a red velour sheet hanging in the back that was yuck. Well after the vows were said..which of course made me cry..we had to sit there while they took pictures. I looked over at Annie at this point and said, "This is why I want most of my pictures to be taken before the wedding." You could tell the new married couple wanted to go somewhere and kiss or something, but they weren't able to enjoy the moment because they had to automatically take pictures. Annie Nicole looked gorgeous though and she was just glowing. We talked to Annie Nicole and told her congratulations etc. and then we were on our way home....What a short trip to the mountains. I can't wait to go back and enjoy myself without being rushed.
When I got home, *Jack* was on his way to my house. I made sure not to change clothes to quickly when I got home so he could get a glimse of me looking extra cute....oops secret is out now...We went out after I changed clothes and ate at Camino Real mmmm mmmm. We then went back to my house, watched a little bit of a movie with my parents, and were about to head to his house, but I had to take Annie her glasses. We sat over at their apartment until late and then made our way to his house where I got rubbed and kissed on until I fell asleep...how sweet is that? Normally it is the other way around.
Sunday morning we slept in which is a first for us. Normally we have to wake up early so that he can go to work. We spent the day together, and even fell asleep one last time together on my bed. Then he left for his friend's house and I called Katie.
Katie and I went out for a little while. Didn't really do anything, but I didn't get to sleep until about 2:30 in the morning....It was not fun getting up to go to work on Monday.
Monday I went to work. This store I am in is a total mess..... I went to *Jack's* after work and ate what he had made...mmmm mmmm. Then we watched TV. Amazingly the same thing happened yesterday.
So far today I have gone to work. *Jack* and I are going to go do something once he gets off of work. This means I need to go take a shower and lotion up, so I will smell really good. Wonder what I will wear today.
Oops forgot to mention the super sweet thing *Jack* did this morning. Every night when I leave his house he tells me to call him when I get home. Well last night I called but he didn't pick up his phone. I get a phone call at 3:41:17am and it is him calling to make sure I got home ok. He said he couldn't sleep because he was worried.....( me wondering what was actually said because I barely remember him calling but I do remember.) Come to find out it was actually the second time he called me. Awwwww.....He really likes me.
